Steel Balls -- Came, Stood Solid, and Emerged Victorious!

In my previous posts I managed to fill you all in my ever unsteady long term relationship that has been long over, yet unrelentlessly not over.

I am happy to announce that the steel balls I was figuratively growing on my way to real LIFE emerged, stood their ground, and did emerge victorious. While I cannot say that this was easy, it is finally -- FINAL.

The comic side of the hour and half civil conversation....I tried all I could to be courteous, understanding, and nice during the entire conversation and not blame him or say anything too crude, but he dropped in tidbits like "well I was kinda seeing this girl, you saw her picture..." all this of course after verifying that I wasn't sleeping with someone else. Um, hello, do you really think I give a shit? Good for you! I was being totally nice in keeping my personal and relationship status to myself -- in reality that would be crude to explain about my feelings toward other men and is no longer important to our relationship.

Apparently the time apart has me much further past the emotional clingyness than he is. While I feel for his pain, his comic tidbits (at least comic to me...)brought on no pain or jealousy, actually I was pretty happy he had met someone. The strings binding me to him were not as strong now as they used to be, and emotionally I was totally ready to let this one go.

Overall, the hour and a half conversation was funny, literate, friendly at times, free of yelling and blame, and ultimately over! I finally feel like a real woman again -- and complete! I look forward to getting the new me back to a sane lifestyle and furthering myself in every way! A huge bundle has been lifted from my shoulders and walking tall never felt so good!